God! What do I do now?

I want back, those good old days
When I was happy in my own ways

And now when it all 'really' mattered
I can’t see my dreams being shattered
I try damn hard, but cannot be brave
Feel like a loser, dug my own grave

Curse my fate I just woke up now
Got to pull myself up now somehow
I realise the many mistakes that I made
For those were the ones, for which I paid

I’ve all through lived in my little dreams
To think beyond it now, wiser it seems
I can’t just brush away all my pains
It still hurts, cos the memory remains

Fate’s playing his old cruel joke
I can’t laugh, I’m already broke
It is not easy to bring myself to blame
But I’m being consumed by this flame

Father Time give me another chance
I ‘ll give the past one more glance
I long to make changes to my past
I want happiness that can forever last

It all happened fast, I don’t know how
I’m despairing, god what do I do now?